Okay, kid, this is where it gets complicated...

Sleep deprivation gives me really bad anxiety when i’m not even nervous

I can’t wait to see ke$ha

do we win the indie award

also into cats

I’m in barnes and noble with Sarah!!!!!!!!!! We didn’t go to rutgers fest. Bamboozle is tomorrow dkdjshgwkfdkxhdvdbshdjrb wow

Oh, this morning I actually felt worthless for really the first time in my life. Going two days with about four hours of sleep is no good for me. For the first two periods, I was extremely anxious, and we had a fire drill and I was shaking from all the people in one place and everything was just overwhelming me and it kept escalating. I panicked as soon as I got into geometry for no reason, I was crying and shaking uncontrollably and then I left to go to the nurse. She gave me a graham cracker and let me sleep through the rest of the period and the period after that, but then she made me go to Spanish. It was okay though, I was calm by then. But now I’m home because I’m leaving for the train station in about fifteen minutes… I wish my days were always this short. I only went to two classes.

OKAY BYE FOREVER, TUMBLR. Just kidding I don’t know if I’ll be on much in the next few days though. I’m leaving school around 11:45 and I need to be in New Haven by 1:30… and then NJ Penn Station by 3:30 or something… and then Bamboozle… and yeah. I’ll be back home late Sunday night. Bye.

Sarah and Alicia are like the same person to me right now, what is even going on.

I just spent like five minutes trying to word something that doesn’t even make sense.

Wow, in like ten hours I’ll be with Sarah, and then we’ll be seeing Brand New, and blowing up balloons maybe, and then in 30something hours we’ll be at Bamboozle and I’ll be meeting a bunch of people in person for the first time and it will be awkwardly awesome. This weekend better go well. I know it will but I hope nothing goes wrong like last year.

Not that the sun is shining right now. But I can see the sky getting lighter.

I wish I could just push the sun back down for a little while. Please don’t shine on me right now.

I don’t. I hardly ever do this anymore, I just had a lot to do.

The best part of this is that the next time I have a year long research project to do, I’m still probably not going to do it until the last week. But I cranked out six fucking pages in two nights. That is the most I’ve done all year…

It is four minutes to 5 in the morning and I am still not sleeping, but I am 99% done with what I need to do.

lol I CAN’T BELIEVE I’M STILL AWAKE DOING THIS.

BUT YOU’RE WORRYING ME

DON’T WORRY ABOUT ME BABY.

GO TO SLEEP!

I CAN’T YET.