work in 20 minutes
still haven’t showered
I love looking at the wedding pictures and being like “I’VE BEEN THERE!!!!!”
not that I’ve been inside or anything
but where the big fountain is
ughhhhhh I wanna go back
I can already tell I’m gonna get so sick of this every weekend
working for 10 hours instead of watching Doctor Who
Juan watching Doctor Who while I am not is putting me in major agony
how did I manage to get sour cream everywhere
it’s on my camera, the floor, my desk, my shorts, my elbows
what the fuck
instead of going to Bamboozle I am going to be working from 3:00 to the end of the night tonight and then watch Doctor Who and then go to sleep until I have to work again at 9:00 to 3:00
I’m still shocked that I’m not there.
I’m so serious about it. I want to enjoy myself the next few months, and this prom stuff just stresses me out because I’m totally fine not going and “regretting it for the rest of my life” because honestly high school sucks anyway and one expensive prom won’t change that. People keep trying to make me feel bad about choosing not to go. Leave me alone, it’s my choice. Honestly I’m REALLY turned off by the idea for several reasons:
- people are CRAZY about prom. it makes me really uncomfortable. just listening to people talk about their own plans makes my skin crawl. It’s just so sleazy and materialistic and fake and it just is not something I want to get involved in.
- It’s a lot of money.
- I don’t have a dress.
- I’ve never seen a prom dress that I saw and thought, “Hm, cute dress.”
- No one asked me to go with them
- This doesn’t mean I don’t have a date (I mean yeah I don’t have one but that’s not why I don’t want to go)
- It means no one asked me to go with their group of friends
- Which bothers me because everyone’s like “are you going? WHY AREN’T YOU GOING?!!!!???” um if you really wanted me to go, you would’ve invited me to join your group, ya know?
- I’m literally the ONLY one I know without a date anyway. I wouldn’t want to go in a group as the only loser who couldn’t get a date.
- I already went to a dance this year and that money went to charity so.
- People telling me they’d find me a date just makes me want to throw up because I honestly don’t want to go. I really don’t like anyone enough to ask them myself- that fact one change if someone else does it for me.
- Yeah that pretty outweighs whatever good could possibly come of the night.
I feel the same way pretty much except for the fact that I have a boyfriend who doesn’t even live here and if he did come here he wouldn’t want to go anyways so that throws the whole concept of “having a date” out the window
I just don’t see what the point of “having a date” is anyways, like so many people are asking people they’re hardly friends with to go with them, and chances are they’re probably just gonna sit next to them and be on the same bus as them
so who even cares if it’s not your boyfriend/girlfriend. everyone flocks to their own group of friends anyways.
Hannah suggested that I go on Keenan’s bus with her but I don’t even know who’d be on it and I’m only friends with a few people and they all have a much stronger bond than I do with them. and it’s not like I don’t want to be friends with any of them or that I don’t like them, it’s just that I KNOW I would be excluded, whether it was intentional or unintentional. and my closest friends who are going are going to be with people who I don’t know or like very much, so I just don’t see how I would have any fun
I don’t dance, either, so while everyone does that I’d just be near all of the food stuffing my face (I don’t know how prom really works but that’s how it always is at dances)
I feel kind of bad because Amber’s like “WELL as long as you go to senior prom I don’t care”
what makes senior prom any different than junior. :|
these are most noises that I do not like
- squeaky doors
- the sound of TV when I’m not watching it
- people going up or down the stairs
- pots and pans hitting against each other
- my squeaky house and hearing people when they are walking
- chairs screeching across the floor
- breathing loudly
- the sound of the sink when it is running constantly
- any sort of rummaging through plastic bags
- paper bags, too, though that’s not as bad
- the sound of people’s voices when they don’t clear their throat
- when people clear their throat
- silverware against plates
- hearing people bite their nails
- people shouting at each other
- people shouting at me
- when I’m listening to music and outside noise can be heard
- i.e., someone else’s music, other people talking
these are things I really hate doing
- wearing earplugs because they hurt my ears after a while and they never work for me anyways because sound is never fully blocked
- trying to drown out sound with music
- telling other people to quiet down because chances are, they’re not even being loud
things I am probably going to do
- die alone because of this
I don’t think that anyone who sympathizes with Tom from (500) Days Of Summer is stupid or anything.
But you need to understand why doing that is not necessarily a good thing.
Because that situation is actually fairly common, and if we keep blaming people who know what they want and are frank about it and just hope, in all our selfishness, that we’re their romantic comedy trope that changes their entire perception of love in general, it’s not going to end well. We’ll set ourselves up with unrealistic expectations instead of looking inside ourselves for the real answers.
You’re not stupid for relating to/rooting for Tom, but you really need to rethink how you absorb these sorts of stories and perhaps be a bit more critical of them.
Honestly, the idea of a world where we never question what we’re seeing scares the hell out of me.
everything in the whole world is annoying